So it's around 3:00 on Sunday night/Monday morning, I have three finals tomorrow/today and have not done much studying. Why? I have no motivation. At all. Zero. Yeah, the whole passing classes thing and all the money I'm paying doesn't motivate me or make me want to study. I don't know why. It's been this way for a while now though. I wish i had a valid excuse but I honestly don't. Which is really sad.
I don't know what to say on here but I feel like I should write. Anything. I haven't wrote in years, yes, literal years, and it's depressing me to say the least. I can't believe how fast time goes by now, it feels like just a few days ago it was October and now classes are done with except for finals. Where does it all go? Sometimes I wish I had an hourglass that I could turn over and start all over from the very beginning. The beginning of this year or maybe even the beginning of high school. Horrible, right? No one ever wants to relive high school, I know I certainly normally wouldn't, however...I don't know anymore, I feel like I'm wasting my life. Like I'm just here, breathing, (barely) living, watching everything and everyone pass me by. Oh gosh, that sounds incredibly emo, doesn't it? Ugh. I apologize to whoever reads this.
Honestly though...It feels like I'm wasting my life. I know, "do something about it", "try harder", "quit complaining", "stop whining". Yeah, I know. I will. I just don't know when or how. My gosh, I can't believe I'm actually broadcasting this to whoever I told my blog url to and whoever else that stumbles across this.
I'm going to just cut this short here, now it's I've spent around eight minutes typing. I'm going to check my laundry, which will hopefully finally be dry, so I can go to sleep. So...all right, that's it for now.
